I know I am a very inconsistent blogger. But hey. I am not even sure anyone is out there. So this past Friday I was able to pick up the Adoption Order. I never knew a paper could make me cry. Especially the part that said that the child will now be known as C.... O.... S... A.... M... (initials...I know that that is a long name...but I love it!) Anyway, there was a communication glitch between me and the guaranteur so I wan't able to actually go to the passport office until Monday.
I went. No passport. But they require a couple of papers/letters and I have been working on all the paperwork that the letter writers require. Hopefully I can get these two letters by Thursday so I can head to the passport office on Friday.
Sunday...I went to the Adoption Resource Exchange Conference in Toronto. I was only planning on checking things out and seeing what it was all about. I ended up putting my name down for 3 kids. Putting my name down just puts me in a pot of possible families. The chances of me getting selected are SLIM to none! There were a lot of families there. And the kids I choose were very close in age to C and the chances of me getting another young and healthy child at this point I don't think are that great. BUT God is a miraclemaker...and if any of these children are meant to call me mom...He will make it possible. The only hard thing is that I dream of these children. I can totally visualize them (one in particular) living here and running and playing with my son.
Only time will tell. I will be happy regardless who happens to be the parents of these children. There are lots of children and they all just need a family to love them forever.
It is late...I need to head to bed...well I am in bed but I need to get to sleep...tomorrow is another busy day!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
busy busy
well things have been busy here to say the least. Last week the Pathfinders had a sleepover/campout in the back yard, C got a new play area (had to be dug out and then 10 tonnes of pea gravel was dumped into it)
and I have been making millions of phone calls trying to get all the paperwork I need to get C a passport so we can go with his Grandparents to South Carolina at the begining of May. (this is not a smooth process and I am hitting lots of speed bumps so please pray about this)
I went to Orangeville to visit a friend for the day. It was a great day. Low Key and perfect. C had lots of fun and was asleep within 5 minutes of driving away :)
I am busy trying to get my flowerbed edged and weeded so it can be mulched. Next plan is to make 2 raised vegetable beds. I am also hoping to get a post digger and make a fenced area around the back of the barn so I can look at getting some chickens and stuff.
C is not adjusting the best to me going back to work. I am dealing with lots of extra behaviour issues sunday evenings and mondays. He also usually doesn't sleep well my first night back.
I think he is on his 5th time out this am and it is only 10am.
that is just some of what is going on. I hope I will get a minute or two to add more info soon...
and I have been making millions of phone calls trying to get all the paperwork I need to get C a passport so we can go with his Grandparents to South Carolina at the begining of May. (this is not a smooth process and I am hitting lots of speed bumps so please pray about this)
I went to Orangeville to visit a friend for the day. It was a great day. Low Key and perfect. C had lots of fun and was asleep within 5 minutes of driving away :)
I am busy trying to get my flowerbed edged and weeded so it can be mulched. Next plan is to make 2 raised vegetable beds. I am also hoping to get a post digger and make a fenced area around the back of the barn so I can look at getting some chickens and stuff.
C is not adjusting the best to me going back to work. I am dealing with lots of extra behaviour issues sunday evenings and mondays. He also usually doesn't sleep well my first night back.
I think he is on his 5th time out this am and it is only 10am.
that is just some of what is going on. I hope I will get a minute or two to add more info soon...
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
once upon a dream....
I love waking in the morning after having a lovely dream! Especially when I dream of being loved.
People ask me about 'finding a husband' quiet often in my life. And the funny thing is that I don't dream of a big white wedding, I don't spend my waking moments on the 'hunt' for a husband. I am not actively looking for a husband....why? because I gave that over to God a long time ago.
Do I want a husband? yes
Will I be happy if I am single the rest of my life? I will aim to be
but I am assuming that IF there is a guy for me out there, I will be open and receptive to what God`s plan is for our life and that in HIS time things will happen if that is a plan he has for me
Would it be nice to have a dad for Chase...definitely! I see him watch dads and their kids...and I know he is going to want that in his life too....but at the same time....I am not going to set us up for heartbreak by taking the whole `finding a man`into my own hands and enter into relationships that are not what God has in store for us.
I have dated in the past....and that has just made me learn that I need to follow God's plan as the heartache and regret of giving part of my heart to someone who wasn't supposed to get it is with me
IF I ever have a husband I want him to
1. love God first
2. love me (& now my son)
3. work hard
4. understand 'family' including an extended one
that is it...I don't care if he is handsome (as he will be to me inside and out) or looks like a movie star...I do care if he has a good heart. Does he need to be perfect? NOPE because I most definitely am not and I wouldn't expect him to be either
I always thought I needed to have a husband before I could be a mom. Single parenting is HARD! and single parenting a child like my son is no easy task. But if I had waited for a husband before choosing to obeying God telling me in my heart to foster....I would not have my son. (and I made this error for a few years)
Do I love being a mom...yes...though if you notice it is 5am and I am blogging...mostly because I have been up for over an hour dealing with my son and the restless sleep that he is having tonight. That was a big adjustment. Being sleep deprived and not allowing that to justify grumpiness. I thought I was over the whole lack of sleep thing....but it is even harder now that I am back to work. I come home from working my 40 hours over 3 days and before I was a mom, I'd crash on the couch in exhaustion....now I can't do that as I come home to a freshly rested toddler!
but back to my original focus of this rambling
Once upon a dream....
In my dreams I have a prince charming that loves me.
I have a husband
and yes he has a face and a name and he is based on someone that I know in real life. His face changes over the years. It has been the same person for awhile now...do I expect that I will marry this person...nope...he is from my past and is actually going to be married to someone else. But that is alright...cause in my dreams I am loved
and I am happy with that :)
content
does this blog make sense....I don't care...cause I am actually going to try to catch some more sleep now...
night
People ask me about 'finding a husband' quiet often in my life. And the funny thing is that I don't dream of a big white wedding, I don't spend my waking moments on the 'hunt' for a husband. I am not actively looking for a husband....why? because I gave that over to God a long time ago.
Do I want a husband? yes
Will I be happy if I am single the rest of my life? I will aim to be
but I am assuming that IF there is a guy for me out there, I will be open and receptive to what God`s plan is for our life and that in HIS time things will happen if that is a plan he has for me
Would it be nice to have a dad for Chase...definitely! I see him watch dads and their kids...and I know he is going to want that in his life too....but at the same time....I am not going to set us up for heartbreak by taking the whole `finding a man`into my own hands and enter into relationships that are not what God has in store for us.
I have dated in the past....and that has just made me learn that I need to follow God's plan as the heartache and regret of giving part of my heart to someone who wasn't supposed to get it is with me
IF I ever have a husband I want him to
1. love God first
2. love me (& now my son)
3. work hard
4. understand 'family' including an extended one
that is it...I don't care if he is handsome (as he will be to me inside and out) or looks like a movie star...I do care if he has a good heart. Does he need to be perfect? NOPE because I most definitely am not and I wouldn't expect him to be either
I always thought I needed to have a husband before I could be a mom. Single parenting is HARD! and single parenting a child like my son is no easy task. But if I had waited for a husband before choosing to obeying God telling me in my heart to foster....I would not have my son. (and I made this error for a few years)
Do I love being a mom...yes...though if you notice it is 5am and I am blogging...mostly because I have been up for over an hour dealing with my son and the restless sleep that he is having tonight. That was a big adjustment. Being sleep deprived and not allowing that to justify grumpiness. I thought I was over the whole lack of sleep thing....but it is even harder now that I am back to work. I come home from working my 40 hours over 3 days and before I was a mom, I'd crash on the couch in exhaustion....now I can't do that as I come home to a freshly rested toddler!
but back to my original focus of this rambling
Once upon a dream....
In my dreams I have a prince charming that loves me.
I have a husband
and yes he has a face and a name and he is based on someone that I know in real life. His face changes over the years. It has been the same person for awhile now...do I expect that I will marry this person...nope...he is from my past and is actually going to be married to someone else. But that is alright...cause in my dreams I am loved
and I am happy with that :)
content
does this blog make sense....I don't care...cause I am actually going to try to catch some more sleep now...
night
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