I often forget...

it is so easy to fret and stew about something and forget to just trust God to work it all out in His time. Childcare is a BIG stress for me. My support network for childcare is MUCH smaller than I anticipated going into motherhood. My parents like being grandparents but overall would prefer to not be on my list for childcare. Which is fine. Hopefully when I am on my own with the boys, they will be in a different place. It is hard because they are grandparenting daily. Up until recently we ate most suppers together as a family. If either of my parents are doing anything outside, more often than not CO will shadow them.
Rarely will I ask my parents to watch the boys. Usually it is just for a staff meeting while the boys or napping or occasionally my father will watch J while CO is at swim lessons.

So I often stress about childcare and get myself worked into a tizzy only to have it all work out by the time I need it to. My pastor's wife has been great at helping me locate someone in a time of need.

I am happy right now knowing that my weekend childcare needs are filled until the middle of July. I am trying not to stress about time beyond that...
This is something that will always be an issue as long as I am employed and the children need someone to watch them. But I also know that I am doing what God wants me to, and that he has blessed me with the job that I have that enables me to be able to support my children with a full-time income and enables me to be a stay at home mom 5 days/week.

Please pray for me. And if anyone knows someone who is willing and able to be a nanny and is in my area, please feel free to pass along my contact information.