meeting results...

Tuesday my SW arrived to tell me that the two kids that are with me will most likely stay with me. The baby brother may or may not join us.
The directors & case managers were supposed to meet today to make the final decision. Today I got an email saying that they didn't have time to meet to discuss the future of the kids and that hopefully they will be able to early next week...sorry for the delay...sigh

so once again I am in limbo....sigh...sigh...


IN the meantime...my inlaws are here....I love having them come....

no decision...

I just got an email from my SW

I have no decision yet, but I do need to meet with you if possible.

Would you be available to meet tomorrow @ 2?

 

So...still no decision made. I made sure I kept myself busy today as I thought they were meeting today at 3 to make a decision. Seems not. So, my stomach continues to churn, my brain going a million miles an hour going over the 'what ifs' and dreaming of possibilities and worrying about losses...

 

 

maybe tomorrow after 2, I will know a little more...

long weekend...

our long weekend was great! We had a family reunion in Huntsville with my dad's side of the family. There was lots of people to catch up, to meet and just laugh with. The boys were in and at out of the freezing cold water a lot! The boys fished and swam and splashed. The boys caught nothing. I am not sure that anyone really caught many fish even though the lake is stocked. Me, I spent the least amount of time at the lake as humanly possible as I could as the black flies were crazy. I remembered by Sunday to take my camera out :( so I only have photos from the last two days...I have yet to upload them.

On the way home, we were detoured in O'ville due to the truck malfunctioning.  We made lemonaide from our lemons and spent some time with friends, at every kids park and walking around town delivering flowers. Once the truck was all fixed we headed home catching just the beginings of the storm that hit the town. It was odd while driving down Fergus rd to have a sudden downpour of rain that was blowing horizontally. I decided to plug on rather than pull over as I didn't know how long or intense the storm was going to get. The boys were both very happy to finally be home and united with L. She stayed with a friend while we were away for the weekend.

As for the kid's future, there is a meeting on the 27th to determine who thier family will be. In the meantime, we just wait. We continue life as normal pretending that these might not be our last days together.

The flower bed I built a wall for outfront was planted with vegetables last week. CO has claimed it as his, which is ok as it just means he gets to take on part of the responsibility of weeding and watering and in the end can take ownership of the final products. The chickens are growing nicely and CO was so excited how much they grew the four days we were away. In a couple more months we should start getting eggs. While in O'ville CO purchased a strawberry plant so we need to determine where we will be planting that. The weather has been sunny and warm since we returned which means lots of time walking around town and enjoying the backyard. I got out the kiddy pool last night and all the kids had a cool down before bed. Once all the kids were in bed I hit the shower and had an early night.

here is what I now know...

NOTHING

well sort of nothing.

I am one of a few options.  Because 2/3 of the sibling set already live with me may or may not work in my favour. The kids are all ready with me but have not been for all that long.

So, they will evaluate the information that was collected from me today and will meet next week and go from there. A very LONG process. Things may or may not be settled by the end of the month. Hopefully they will.

Limbo sucks.

My worker knows me and my abilities. She just has to make that reflect on paper. Because in all reality, I am a single mom.

So, maybe an update by next week...but when it comes to these agency type things, there is NO speed...

filling the gaps...

The more I interact with T the more I see that there are gaps. Gaps in his development. Gaps in his life.
For example yesterday:
I put T on a bicycle with training wheels. He didn't come with a bike and said he had never had one before. He sat on the bike and started complaining that it wasn't working. He just thought it would go. So at 5 years old he is having to learn to pedal. A very frustrating thing for him. I had to physically move his feet one at a time in the right direction to get him going. He progressed to being able to push the pedals for a couple of cycles and then his feet would automatically go in the opposite direction and come to an abrupt stop. Which frustrated him to no end. He would yell that there was something wrong with the bike.
He will just need practice to get used to having his feet go round and round continously. We've practiced twice yesterday. We have to keep it short as he gets frustrated easily. We go a couple of blocks away to a paved church parking lot. We were going to go to a third time but he drove off the sidewalk and broke a plastic part of one of his trainingwheels.
I got a new training wheel for him this morning so maybe we will get a chance to practise again tonight

the update that means????

I got an email today after the meeting:

Hi Amy –

Sorry for the email but I am rushing out the door.

We met today to discuss your plan related to the children.

We would like to assess that further with you, including looking at having the baby come for visits.

I am away until May 7 – could we look at meeting May 8 @ 1:30 to discuss further?

Let me know.

Thanks!

as to what it means....I am not sure. I think I am still one of a few options....